Friday, 22 February 2013

I’ve Not Seen

I’ve not seen an end without a beginning
I’ve not seen a sunset without rising
I’ve not seen death without life
I’ve not seen rain without clouds
I’ve not seen old age without youth
I’ve not seen a child walk without crawling
I’ve not seen a tree without root
I’ve not seen a rock without a base
I’ve not seen an ocean without a depth
I’ve not seen light without darkness
I’ve not seen an earth without a ground
I’ve not seen a globe without an axis
I’ve not seen civilization without primitive
I’ve not seen a mountain without a buttress
I’ve not seen an exit without an entrance
I’ve not seen a closure without an opening
I’ve not seen good without evil
I’ve not seen a nation without history
I’ve not seen an ascending without descending
If Jesus never descended he wouldn’t have ascended
Better is the end of a thing than its beginning
But let us not forget our little beginnings
There’s never been an end without a beginning
A death without a birth

Merry Xmas People
Let’s celebrate the birth of Christ come 25th

I Am Happy

 
As I sat in my balcony
To unravel life’s irony
A sensuous feeling, my blood burned
Coursing to my heart, it warmed
Then I felt a glow on my face
My lips parted in a smile

Why am I happy? I asked
The economy is smoked
Natural disasters everywhere
No excitement left anywhere
Hunger and strife have become the clime
Poverty and crime escalated to a prime

Then I remember
Even in stormy weather
There’s still hope somewhere
Even in a journey to nowhere
We stay strong as one
Like a bundle never to be torn

Looking at each other face
Catching somebody’s gaze
That gleeful smile
With rapport and gale
Then I realized why I’m happy
Because I chose to be happy

Once A Virgin

Stranded I am in an unfeeling world
My heart aches terribly from pain beyond words
I remember when I was eighteen and shy
Young, beautiful and budding like a butterfly
In love I was and sang with the birds
My head swirled up in the skies
Then I came crashing hardly
From colossal heights unworldly

He was my very first love
Or was he my first lust?
We burned in the heat of love
Love as pure and innocent as a dove
He brought murder to my virginity
I had a rebirth in my femininity
Out of that passionate night came a son
Who has become my sun

A single mother I am
Left by the world to damn
My lover gone in a single blink
Deserting me in a cruel world to sink
But in my gloomy life
I’ve found a streak of sunshine
That son borne out of shame, disgrace
Has become my joy, my happiness

As I look into his sparkling eyes
And behold his innocent gaze
There is no river I can’t cross
Nor mountain I can’t climb
Though there’ll be upheavals
For him I’ll stay strong
For in him I found a reason to live
A purpose, a reason to be happy

I Wish I Could Say I’m Free

 
I wish I could say I’m free
To stand in one place as tree
In the company of my like
Feeling green even as things hike
Feeding from my depth
The food I stored without debt
Nourishing my stems, with laughter
Flaunting my fair leaves with luster
Dancing to the rhythm the wind whisper
And vaunting even as the breeze flounder

I wish I could say I’m free
To live like an Eagle that I see
Being the praise of mankind
The envy and passion of my trend
Flying to great altitudes and heights
Soaring to unknown worlds and sights
Feeling the sun on my face and feathers
And let the wind carry me across many weathers
Swooping down at will to make my choice of food
And have none decide for me whether or not be nude

I really wish I could be free
But some things wished can never be

You Shall Be Missed

 
I cried when I saw the fire everywhere
With help to be found nowhere
It is a sight so pitiful
And a memory so painful.

Was it not yesterday
Full of life and hope for another good day
They all climbed aboard
Even the smiling hostesses were on board.

I saw their beautiful faces
Looking sassy and free from faze
Men and women from different facets
Every one of them flying to an ill fate.

Now they are all gone
Even those that are yet to be born
For this unbearable loss
Nothing can serve as a redress.

The wives of the victims are crying
The children of the deceased are weeping
The husbands of the dead are in desolation
And written all over our faces are despair and depression.

But what can we say
God gives and God takes
Under His bosom we pray they may stay
And never wander off like a little child who strays.

To the weeping wives, we bring comfort
To the crying children, we give support
The husbands, we console
And to all Nigerians, we should condole.

Memory is a way of holding on
To the people that keeps us on
To the things that keeps us rolling
With laughter when we remember what keeps us going.

We know that you are up there watching us
Although your departure with sorrow fills our hearts
But still we promise to bear your memories forever
For they shall never be forgotten, never.

We now know what it means to lose
For our system is so loose
But we pray that next time, our enemies will pray amiss
For our loved ones we still miss.

I Won’t Give Up

In the face of hopelessness
I see hope
In the face of helplessness
I see help
Though my stomach is in knots
And my knees about to give out
Still I can’t think of giving up
Though darkness now encompasses me
And it seems I’m drowning in a deep ocean
Still I have faith that soon the storm will be over
And the morning will come
My hopeless hope
I hold on to
My dreamless dream
I dare not let go
Even if the end is to come
I still shall not worry
For the end of a thing
Marks another new beginning

I Wish I Could Be Free

 
I wish I could be free
To roam every street and climb every tree
To tell my tale
And at will flail my tail

To sit on the stars
Or even sojourn to Mars
To dance like there is no end
Even though in a minute I could be dead

To love without stopping
And hear my heart throbbing
To fly on eagle’s wings
And sit like a king of kings

But no matter how strong my faith
I still have to live my life, my fate
For even as my yearnings be
Only remind me of what cannot be

Can’t give it up

My best moment seems the worst. When I want to smile that’s when tears come out of my eyes. When I want to enjoy that’s when I suffer most. I want to be happy with you. I want to laugh with you. I want to look upon your face and smile. I want you to see sparkles in my eyes and smile. I want you to laugh at my silly jokes and hold your sides.

I want your ears alone to hear my woes and cries. I want your eyes alone to see my tears. I want your mouth alone to kiss my lips. I want your hands alone to touch me, touch my boobs. I want to share so much with you but I guess these are all my fantasies at work, for no matter how hard I try you seem not to notice me. You only see me as a friend, a reliable colleague to lean on when you are weary. To share your sorrows with and laugh with when you are happy. Don’t you know I have stories to tell too? I have feelings for you. Have you ever stopped to ask yourself why I don’t have a boyfriend? Why I don’t welcome the company of any other but you? Or is it that you don’t care?

You don’t know how much I die inside when we are out and you go on and on about how this girl or that girl is so sexy in her outfit or how well her hair fits her when you’ve never stopped for a second to compliment what I’m wearing. When you walked up to that girl to get her number and ask her out, did you know the hurt I felt deep inside me?

It’s quite funny you find it interesting discussing your little adventures with me when right inside, I’m very grateful those dates were short-lived. Sometimes I wonder how ironic life can get! How come you go outside flirting with anything in skirts, hoping to find true love, when I’m here, ready to give you my all? Sometimes I just want to let go and accept the fact that you will never see me any more differently than a friend but I just can’t give it up.

Even if you are blind to my longings for you and it seems you’ll never get to find out how much I treasure you, I will hold on still to the faith that one day you will appreciate and reciprocate my love for you, then I’ll get to share my woes with you and let you on every one of my secret but until then I still remain your faithful friend, your shoulder to cry on and laps to lean on. Your one and only.

A Sad Exit

Oh my gosh! I still shudder at the memory of it. Standing by and watching as he was carried into the ‘Keke’, unconscious.
It was a Thursday afternoon, after the heavy downpour of the September rain which had thinned down to a drizzle, as I sat in my office attending to a customer, I heard shouts outside. I didn’t bother because there was always a drama going on around my neighbourhoood not until the gradual gathering of people, both neighbours and passersby drew my attention. My customers were already outside, straining their ears to catch the latest, so I decided to go out and see for myself what was happening.
When I came out, I asked someone standing next to me, “Sissy, what is happening?”
“Nna eee, oku na adogbu mmadu”, was her reply. Ew! Electricity electrocuting someone? It was then I looked carefully at the woman wailing. She was the landlady of the woman from whom we usually buy zobo. She was really out of control. It happened that her first son was the victim. The young men who were around, hustled around, looking for a dry stick to push him out.
“How did it happen?” I asked the girl standing next to me.
“He touched a rod at their backyard and at the instant, the rod started shocking him”. Whoop! I don’t remember learning anything like that in school. How can an empty rod shock somebody unless it was connected?
One of my customers muttered in exasperation, “The NEPA should turn off the light electric flow naw! If it were to be in Lagos, they’d definitely notice that something is wrong somewhere and switch off the electricity.”
“Amen”, I said, “Aba NEPA will never detect anything. Sometimes I just wonder why Aba is the worst town for everything here in Nigeria”, I thought aloud to myself.
At last, they succeeded in turning off the house’s electric meter and brought the boy out. Immediately, a tricycle (Keke) was chartered and the boy was rushed to the hospital with the sister and some young men in accompany. The mother was restrained from joining them and kept indoors.
Later in the evening that same day, we received news that the boy didn’t make it. He wasn’t able to survive the shock. O how I grief for the mother. Who could have believed that Emeka would die so soon, in a twinkle of an eye, just like that? Someone who woke up in the morning spontaneously with schedules, maybe he even planned to do one silly or funny thing, now in the mortuary. Now we will never get to see those broad smiles of yours that stretched from your ear like the smile of the sun shining in the midday. Now we will never get to hear your jokes and cackles that can bring joy even to a sorrowful heart. Had I believed in reincarnation, I would have begged the Almighty that you be sent back to us the second time.
Oh how we will miss you, I’m already missing you, even as I write, my heart can no longer contain the grief that I feel, I am bereft, my hands are shaking and my vision blurred by the tears welling up in my eyes.
Now I realize the futility of life. If death could visit someone in his home and take him, how much more outside. Chances are you may not see the person you talked with today, tomorrow. So make the best use of the opportunity you have being alive and reach out to the world.
Ga nkeoma nwokedima, garuo n’udo
Adieu my friend and neighbor. Your memory will remain in our hearts and our prayer is that you rest peacefully in the bosom of our Lord.
We miss you!

Designer’s Touch

 
I watched her as she stepped out of her gown
Exposing to my eyes, a perfect figure
Like the exhibition of an artist
Accurate curve with hair black as charcoal
Two calabashes of palm wine in front
And one big balloon at the back
Swaying sideways as she walks
Like a she-goat in her gestation period
A pair of legs, bowed and stout
But fitting perfectly the plump body
Sleek arms with slender fingers
And beautifully cut nails
Her face glowing
I’m sure the moon is envious of her shine
Two brown eyes dreamy like hell
Ears perfectly perched in the right places
A sculptured nose pointing towards me
And a perfectly carved lips, red and sumptuous
On the whole a perfect beauty
With little imperfections adding to its uniqueness
I looked at the wife of my youth,
And I couldn’t help but wonder if God has a Doctors degree in Arts
For beholding my wife I see art at its finest
A designer’s touch

My Little Shrine

My little shrine
I visit it every morning
To make my little ritual
This comes in sizes and textures
Depending on how my much
My chi blessed my little tummy in the previous day
To the god in white cavity with a hole to the deepest
I fling my coins to
Once there, in my odious haven
I plan my day and activities
I think of the weirdest and funniest things
Seated on the seat of shit
I even fantasize on my dreamy future
With ideas popping into my medulla
Lo! Even there I thought of this piece
This is my sanctuary for sanity
When outside and my little rituals demand to be offered
I pay no heed to it and push it to the depths of my bosom
There it will wallow in sorrow
Till I get to an asylum where it can be safely disposed
For even though the ritual is to the same god
I cannot compare the comfort of my little shrine to another’s
But then if I survive its nasty breath till dusk
I pay homage to my shrine once more
Letting go of all my rituals accumulated during the day
Till even the smallest piece is tossed into its pit
For only then will I heave a sigh
And enjoy my night’s sleep.

A Visit To The Gladiators

  I strode elegantly into the arena to witness the most insidious city. I was welcomed with wine and mad kisses and given a place amongst the elites of this great city to watch from a graceful view. Offenders were brought out for persecution and their throats were slit to warm the ground and prepare it for a bloody day. I nauseated from the sight. When I asked them the offenses of these offenders, they merely replied, “Who cares what their sins are; it is more like a warning to potential law breakers”, their faces warped and lips twisted to one side in despise, “and also to wet the land for the event of the day”, they quickly added amidst roaring laughter and ecstatic shouts. I was yet to witness even more nauseating scenes. Now the gates are opened and men (slaves) trooped in to the arena; broad chested, arms mighty (I’m sure a grip will kill the highest commander in my dear country), faces scary like monsters and their growl loud like a lion’s. These are the gladiators, men who fight for honour that’s hardly theirs (I’m amused at their sense of entertainment).
First were the eliminating rounds where freshmen were put to test to determine their masculinity. Every one of them fought ferociously to gain the praise of the crowd. The less fortunate ones were slew, their blood saturating the ground; arms, legs, heads rolling on the ground, bodies badly battered and beaten, being dragged away covered in dust and sand (I think I’m going to throw up anytime from now).
The noise had increased; I guess we’ve finally come to the come to the main event of the day. This was the time of the gods of the arena. The champions of each house trooped out once by one. I scrutinized every one of them; their faces a scare to behold. I bet a little child will scream on beholding their faces at night. But then I saw someone; someone different whose heart didn’t lie with the glory and honour of being a gladiator. His eyes held dreams of a saner world and a life of better purpose. It’s relieving to behold, in this mess of a city, a fine gentleman with a heart and a difference.
In no time the tournament ensued. Swords were flying. I saw for myself the finest display of battle skills – now I know why they are called gladiators. They fought as though they’ve become one with their swords. I’ve never seen such mastery of swords. More blood spilled. More bodies dead. Someone among the crowd sitting very close to the battle ground even lost his fingers. The crowds were cheering and shouting for more blood. What a city! Secretly I prayed for the safety and victory of him whom I presumed was different. It was as if God answered my prayer because He began to fight with ease and attacked with the efficiency of an ancient master of the arts. “This is really cool” I thought to myself.
After what seemed like an eternity, the tournament finally came to an end and him who I presumed to be different emerged as the winner. He became the champion of champions, the god of the arena and to reward him for his bravery, they granted him freedom. He was all smiles. At least he can live outside this whole madness and lead a normal life. Now that’s a fight that was worth it. I was glad it was finally over. Without much ado, I excused myself from their mad merriment and set on my way back home. What a day! I heaved a sigh of relief and drifted to sleep in my cab.
“Janet, wake up. Its past 7” my mother shouted.
I opened my eyes to see my mum staring into my face and wondering what has come over me. Gosh! Still in Naija? So this was a dream.

Gallantry

 
Arms strong as iron
Broad shoulders and chest
Flaunting developed muscles
Eyes glaring red
Legs firm and well balanced
Displayed in every vein
Is strength, absolutely
Like a monstrous savage
Let loose from the pit of hell
But far it be from gallantry

It’s been thought amiss
To be rogue, cruel, hostile
But in real sense it
Denotes nobility
A sound mine of landed gentry
Portrayed in the confidence
To fight for a just cause
Willingness to reason
Than follow blindly

It’s not of the muscles
It more of the heart

Man’s Wickedness To Man

 
The city is painted red
Awash with the blood of the lowly
Innocent, slaves, servants
Lives of war and sex
Maidens defiled by monsters
Their pride, a prize for the savage.

Wickedness in high places
The departure of freedom
The emergence of woe and foe
Bloody sacrifice for bloody freedom
Freedom, even as it is noted
Never is free at all.

Crowds cheering at the prosecution
Of yet another slave, servant, offender
Forgetting these ones were at a time
Fellow citizens and free.

In the craving for power
The lower citizen suffers
The ones atop have nothing to lose
For whether you win or not
They keep themselves
And their lives.

I have yet again
Seen the nature of man
Through many glasses.

I Got A Story

My life sucks
Everything about it
My effort I see
Fizzling away
My dreams I see
Dwindling afar
“Sky is the limit”
They all say
But I wonder why the sun
Has gone beyond my reach
Many times I hit it close
“Not good enough” I hear.

Never, I seem
To do a thing aright
I watch others
As they flaunt their skills
Their boldness, I envy
Their poise, I long for
“How come they are so good?”
I ask myself
Humans, they are as well
Why am I different?
Maybe I can never be like them
I give up.

My dreams are intense
My vision keen
But they say to me
“This is not good enough”
Oh! I sink deeper into misery
They I’m a loser
I try to burst a little
They say I’m frenzied
The future I hope
Will be brighter
I know this story
I must live to tell

Forgiveness

To err is human
To forgive is divine
A grudging heart never know
Itself it has imprisoned
Dark it has become
From the smokes of hate
It is hurt and broken
From grief deep within
Sorrowful from not letting go
In the stance, many blessings forego

But forgiveness
Is something else
It frees you from the grasp
Of hate and regret
It eludes the darkness inside
With colourful rays of sunshine
It brings with it boldness
Self confidence and unearthly happiness
At first, it might hurt badly
To let go of a wrong so heinous
But revenge at times is regretful
More importantly, it makes you
Not so different from the culprit
Yea! Forgive those who hurt you
But most of all
Forgive yourself for letting them hurt you

Cold Sun

I shiver from cold I don’t seem to see My lips shake and rattle from deep within
My teeth are clattering
My body quivering
Is this not sun
From the east rising?
Why then do I tremble
From cold while its shining?

Oh cold sun!
Why art thou so cold?
You’ve made my day gloomy
Thus making me moody
Can a salt of its taste lost
Still be worth a thing?
If thou art cold
Of what use, then, is your shine?

There’d better be no sun at all
Than to make do of a cold one